However.
On October 21, I will have been married 10 years.
On May 26, I will have been a mom for 8 years.
On September 1, I will have been living in the same house and employed in the same full time job for 3 years.
I know this doesnt seem like much in, you know, geological time (yes, I'm 41 years old, and with the exception of 1980-1987, I've never lived in the same house for more than three years,) but these are all records for me. I'm sticking with stuff now and really liking the way it feels.
I know this doesnt seem like much in, you know, geological time (yes, I'm 41 years old, and with the exception of 1980-1987, I've never lived in the same house for more than three years,) but these are all records for me. I'm sticking with stuff now and really liking the way it feels.
When J and I have a little spat sometimes we say "Oh, well, marriage is long. We have time to try again and get this right" and I love leaning into that feeling of permanence and solidness. I mean, I dont think I'll ever get over the thing of slowing down for a house for sale (You know that one on the corner of Park and Huntington, Beavertonites? Doesnt it just looks so cozy? And it's on a hill! And it has sidewalks!), but I'm better at noticing that itchy, antsy feeling for what it is - a symptom of Something Else which will not be cured by the new house, job or relationship. Because wherever you go, there you are, you know?
Now, on May 22, I will have been doing Weight Watchers for 4 months. This is my third time through this program, and I'm at a familiar point at which I've always quit before. I've lost the weight I really wanted to lose, and I'm comfortable in my skin. It wasnt exactly easy, but I stuck with it and I did it. But. I am still 10 pounds from the WW recommended weight for me - which means I still have to lose almost as much again as I've lost already if I keep at it. Which means 4 more months of counting and tracking and eating that hateful nonfat cheese. And then, if I make it that far, then as far as the eye can see of being on The Maintenance Plan. I dont know if I care that much.
Now, on May 22, I will have been doing Weight Watchers for 4 months. This is my third time through this program, and I'm at a familiar point at which I've always quit before. I've lost the weight I really wanted to lose, and I'm comfortable in my skin. It wasnt exactly easy, but I stuck with it and I did it. But. I am still 10 pounds from the WW recommended weight for me - which means I still have to lose almost as much again as I've lost already if I keep at it. Which means 4 more months of counting and tracking and eating that hateful nonfat cheese. And then, if I make it that far, then as far as the eye can see of being on The Maintenance Plan. I dont know if I care that much.
So, I'm on the horns of a dilemma - stick with it? Or drop out?
This doesnt really seem like that a big deal, but it represents something bigger for me. Because, I'm into sticking with things now, and I dont want to quit just because that's what I always do. On the other hand, I dont want to stick with something that really is not working for me anymore just because I'm trying to be that kind of person now.
Thoughts?
4 comments:
That's such a good question. Wondering with you.
At my weigh in/meeting today, the leader (how I SWEAR does not read this blog!) said, in talking about excuses for quitting WW:
"And then I would say to myself 'Dont say you dont care! Of COURSE you care!'"
Guess that's the answer I was looking for then....
juniper... it is SO worth sticking with ww... if you are at the weight you want to be at, negotiate that to be your goal weight and work for lifetime status. if you want to give it a whirl try for 10 more pounds and then work on maintenance/lifetime. i got back to lifetime status last summer and it has been amazing to go for free once a month to weigh-in to keep me on track. it is SO worth getting to lifetime. trust me. i'll see you in a month and we can talk about it then if you want. or we could talk on the phone.
Stick with it. It's worth it. It sucks, and the second half always feels and sometimes is longer than the first half, but it's worth it when you get there.
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